{written by Kat}
I am telling the 10 of you 1 person who actually reads this blog,& I am going to speak for all the PDEO ladies,we are NOT sorry for not posting regularly.Well, at least I'm not sorry I haven't posted regularly.
However I AM sorry I have nothing much to share ever.
Now today is the perfect example of just how much NOTHING I have to write about... Today I went to see
with Alex O'Loughlin aka. "Sex on a Stick"
or at least he was for me today.
The movie? It was cute.
But I have been lusting after this Alex for a while...
But seeing as it has been 1 year, 11 months & 16 days since I've been laid...
& I am on my cycle... & I am prone to reactions to walking sexy-ness...
Like this:
I very nearly spontaniously combusted during this scene...
I am going to be the first to admit O'Loughlin is sexier human than as a vampire.
But I left the movie so FRAKIN horny that I have been watching my Moonlight: The Complete Series nearly non stop since getting home from the movie.
& since my Kat-time has been put on hold due to my "biological" visitor...I am hopin for some REALLY good dreams tonight!xoxo
reply: "Do you want the truth or do you want to back off now while you still can and say 'feel better'?" 11:03pm
txt: "truth" 11:05pm
reply: "Because i am in a fucking shit ton of pain and if i wasn't you don't ever want anything real from me other than to 'hangout' and if you did we don't live in the same city and if we did you haven't shown my any reason why I should trust you since trust is huge for me
" 11:09pm
txt: "ok then!" 11:13pm
txt: "ok, so what i can't want To hang out with you? and why have i ever given you a reason not To trust me?' 11:16pm
reply: "Seriously? Look at you right now. You are offended that I don't want to nurture a friendship right now where a Friend would ask or say 'sorry. let me know if i can do anything'" 11:18pm
txt: "Hey, i am not offended one bit. i don't think We are good friends or anything." 11:20pm
reply: "Well i don't know how you can let a friendship grow without trust so I think you are completely missing the point. Good night." 11:24pm
Really? I mean REALLY!?
Who fucks with a woman who gave you fair warning?
I am ready to be un-concussed & throbbing in pain, un-cramped & bleeding, and un-single & etc.
I'm sorry I don't really blog here anymore.
To be honest I don't know if this is me any longer.
I've figured out sex is a lot more serious than I've made it out to be the past several years. What sucks is being extremely fucking horny and not being able to do ANYTHING.ABOUT.IT.
I mean I've always had that sexual frustration but I think to myself, "OK Nicki you can go get B.O.B. out later and everything will be fine." then I sit back and relax again thinking, "Oh, that Nicki. She's so smart."
Well what happens when you are going through a certain recovery process in the female genital area and aren't allowed to *cough* and I quote "put anything in the vagina for at least 3-6 weeks" (and highlight).
Being anonymous sucks in ways because I really have to plan my posts and can't just comment indiscriminately - I have to remember who I am at the moment! LOL
Let me tell you a story and y'all can decide if my friend is/was a lesbian and may have been hitting on me (or leading up to it). Because when I remember the situation, I wonder - which probably means I'm right. My gay-dar ain't great but I'm not STUPID.
Back in High School (MANY years ago, yes), I hung with the drama and music crowd. And one of the chicks would talk to me about how her problem with men was none of them really got her motor running, kwim? and i replied, MY problem is that they ALL do! (I was kinda boy-crazy but a late bloomer so they didn't reciprocate ... which is probably all for the best, not getting PG at 15 and whatnot.)
One day she came wandering by my house (which is really weird, she lived NOWHERE near us, and was on foot) and said she'd been out all day and asked me to feed her. So I made her two PB&Js. I got this vibe off her that I didn't know how to interpret, so I just went on like normal.
She hung out with me for a while but moved on, as friends do. I ran into her maybe 5 years later and she totally AVOIDED me, like if she WAS, she was worried that I knew, since I wasn't, and might TELL.
I would never tell; it's not my secret! and I would never mention her name, and since I'm anonymous nobody will ever guess. BUT I WONDER.what do YOU think?
We are 6 girls from 6 completely different worlds, united by a common interest in .. well.. sex.
Some of us are anonymous, some are not. Some of us are married, some of us are repulsed by it. But we all came together with one intention: to let our libido do the talking for once and tell it how it is. You want some real entertainment? Stick around.